The Man that I Love

Maybe I annoy you with my choices
Well, you annoy me sometimes too with your voice
But that ain't enough for me
To move out and move on
I'm just gonna love you like the man I love.

We don't have to hurry
You can take as long as you want
I'm holdin' steady
My heart's at home
With my hand behind you
I will catch you if you fall
Yeah, I'm gonna love you like the man I love.

Sometimes the world can make you feel
You're not welcome anymore
And you beat yourself up
You let yourself get mad
And in those times when you stop lovin'
That man I adore
You can relax
Because, babe, I got your back
Uh, I got you
Uh, Yeah
I don't wish to change you
You've got it under control
You wake up each day different
Another reason for me to keep holdin' on
I'm not attached to any way you're showing up
I'm just gonna love you like the man I love
Yeah, I'm gonna love you
Oh, Yeah I'm gonna love you
'Cause you're the man I love.

many thanks to Jason Mraz

If She Only Knew...

If she only knew... If she only knew that I didn't get to eat supper last night, she wouldn't have taken the extra cereal that Chris gave me at breakfast. She said, "Only one cereal for each student. That's the rule at this school!" If she only knew... If she only knew that I had to watch my little brother last night while momma was at the park with her friends, she wouldn't have punished me for not getting my homework done. If she only knew... If she only knew that I like to make stuff during science class, she would let us make rockets like Mrs. Bagen's class. Instead, we read about rockets from a book. If she only knew... If she only knew that her rules are as long as the lines at the city pool, she would make a shorter list that we could remember. If she only knew... If she only knew that my daddy left me and momma when I was two, she would stop telling me that she's going to call my daddy for a conference. If she only knew... If she only knew that I get really upset when Leonard talks about my momma, her biggest rule would be, "No talking about other people's mommas." If she only knew... If she only knew how much I love to draw, she would make me the class poster maker. Instead, she doesn't let me because my handwriting isn't so great. If she only knew... If she only knew that I need to talk if I'm going to learn, she wouldn't send me to the principal's office so much. She says my talking is disruptive in the classroom. She's the only person talking. In my opinion, that's a disruption. If she only knew... If she only knew that when she gets mad and screams at the class, it scares me. Last year, Ms. Stewley never raised her voice at me. Mrs. Stewley was quiet as a crook after midnight. When Mrs. Stewley talked, kids listened. If she only knew... If she only knew that some of the boys are trying to get me to join their gang, she would help me say, "No!". If she only knew... If she only knew how much I like to run, she would have told me about last week's track team sign-up. If she only knew... If she only knew how much I need my mentor here at school, she would let me see him more. He thinks I'm cool. If she only knew... If she only knew that I know stuff that she doesn't know. I know where to get bus tokens. I know what time the city bus passes the school. I know the best place to buy a pop. I know what time the sprinkler comes on at the park. I know what it means to be 'dissed'. I know how to live without electricity. I know how to entertain an entire room of people with my personality and humor. I know what churches have the best rummage sales. I know how to stay safe in my neighborhood. I know how to keep my clothes from being stolen at the laundromat. I know a lot more than she thinks I do.

Happy New Year 2012!

Keeping up with tradition, these are the songs of the first hour of 2012: 'Stigmatized' by The Calling; 'Dancing Queen' by the Glee Cast; 'Run The World (Jochen Simms Club Mix)' by Beyonce; 'Hypnotico' by Jennifer Lopez; 'Villain' by Jennifer Lopez; 'No Mozart' by Natasha Bedingfield; '(What Is) Love?' by Jennifer Lopez; 'Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me' by Elton John; 'Sacrifice' by Elton John; 'Turning Tables' by Adele; 'Runaway Baby' by Bruno mars; 'I Want Love' by Elton John; 'Somewhere In Brooklyn' by Bruno Mars; 'River' by the Glee Cast. Overall, music seems to define this year as a party with some time to relax, reflect and just take our time with ourselves and those around us. Best wishes to one and all and a thank you for all those who are in my life.