Relationships

friend: i have a problem
me: im listening
friend: so my bf just called me, leaving a panicked voicemail, telling me not to pick up a 347 number if they call me
me: that doesnt sound good
friend: tell me about it
friend: anyway, he called me again and this time i got it...and that's when he admitted something to me...jan...he never left his boyfriend
me: WHAT?!?!?!
friend: i know :-(...and he just called me asking me questions about what happened, how did i meet him and everything
me: and you told him everything?
friend: yeah...what do i do? FUCKING PIG!!!!!
me: oh man, i am really sorry...he seems like such a nice guy
friend: yeah, they always seem like nice guys
friend: he's been texting me constantly telling me he's sorry
friend: his last one said "i only think about you"
me: there'd be a time when i would say "awww" to that statement
friend: he keeps asking for forgiveness and wants me back....what do i do?
me: that relationship is pretty much doomed now
me: i mean, trusting him becomes a crying game
friend: but i like him so much
me: listen to your mind, not your heart
friend: that's hard to do, especially for me, you know this
friend: i just want him so badly...like i really miss him
me: i know you do, but you have to take into account that he might do this to you as well with somebody else
friend: but don't they always say people deserve a second chance?
me: that's true...lord knows ive done some awful things in my past and i wouldnt be able to go on if i wasnt forgiven
friend: so why are you so against me forgiving him?
me: because i don't wanna see you get hurt
me: how you holding up?
friend: i just wanna cry...and scream...and...i dont know
me: take your time and think about this
me: final decision is up to you...not me or any of us
friend: yeah....
me: call me, im better at this when i hear the tone of your voice
friend: yes, doctor
me: lol

the truth behind a lot of gay relationships...is it so hard for us to be honest with each other? no wonder people have such bad opinions about us: we can never maintain a long term relationship. call me an optimist for constantly thinking that there is a good gay guy out there...but everytime that happens, my heart's broken....