How To Save A Life

Last night, while hanging out with my friends in the city, I got a call from my aunt in Haiti, fearing for my mother's ailing health. What she expected me to do, like stay home more and help out more around the house were not easy due to Cooper's requirements. After we were done talking, that's when my friends saw a side of me they never did: I cried. I was on the floor, in tears because for the first time, I realized that despite how much me and my mom argue, how we have so many differences against each other, how many faults we have hindering our relationship from progressing, for the first I realized that I truly do love this woman for everything she's ever done for me and my little brother all by herself. We hadn't spoken for a week prior to yesterday and I didn't know what the reason was. And I honestly didn't care. And then suddenly...I did and it was an overwhelming feeling that completely took over me to the point that I couldn't stand anymore and stop showing this mask to my friends. Everytime, I have always been there for them, Goya, Galit, Kellan, all of them. But I never gave them a chance to be there for me because it was always about everyone else before me. And then last night, they were all there for me, and I think some of those tears were from that as well. To quote one of my favorite songs, "Everyone needs a sense of belonging. Someone there to truly understand. The precious gifts can come from empty hands" ...and those gifts did come...from many hands.
Last night, my life was saved. I decided to stay home today and that's when I saw a side of my mom I hadn't seen in a long time: a smile, that motherly comfort we all long for, we all want to run to whenever we're feeling down and kicked around...that home sweet home feeling. And that's how I saved her life.

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


How to save a life
How to save a life


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


How to save a life

- The Fray