1:30. 1:31. 1:32. 1:33. 1:33:01. 1:33:02. 1:33:03...What does this sounds like? You know what they say: the more you check the clock, the slower it'll go. Now stop! Get up. Stop staring at the clock. Stop waiting. Even better, stop expecting. Understand the situation as it is and take it easy. Understand what happened and learn from it. Be patient. Understand that these things take time...
1:33:33. 1:33:34. 1:33:35...I thought I told you to get up. Stop looking back. Go on about your life. Speed up the clock. Understand that she gave his all the first time and it failed. Understand that he gave his all the first time and it failed. Understand that they do so much and you abused it. It's not a matter of you don't know what you've got until it's gone. It's a matter of you don't know what you've got until you don't have it anymore. Stop asking. Stop pushing. Stop hurting. When you feel that urge to say something, to force the heart to race at a faster pace, shut up! Uncertainty drives this second try with a much stronger influence. You were both at a certain point where comfort and dependence got you through. There was a sense of security and safety that gave you a sense of certainty. Labels were placed. Expectations were to be met. It was more than a friendship. Now, anniversaries are unsure. Anniversaries are no longer. Your hope for a kiss is so high that when it does happen, it might actually kill you...when it does happen...if it does happen...one word, enough to tie you up emotionally. No longer hearing those three words that used to flow so easily out of your mouths turns you into a cripple. Understand that loving someone means being able to live without them, but not wanting to live without them. Live in the moment. Change for yourself. Don't kill him. Don't kill her. Let him find his faith in you again. Let him have faith again, if not with you but at least for the next one.
This is love.
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