One of my favorite french essayists, Michel de Montaigne, once said "I tell the truth, not as much as I would, but as much as I dare -- and I dare more and more as I grow older." Society has us to believe that a relationship should be based on honesty and not on a foundation of lies. I look around me, my friends, my co-workers, my peers in general and I see some of them cheating, some of them building secret friendships without their significant others knowing, thinking that the significant other would grow suspicious and not understand. But we fail to realize everytime that upon doing this, we lie to ourselves, the ones who we say "i love you" to and ruin something that could be great. Yes, telling the truth will get you in trouble if what you did was wrong and most people don't want to face that. Fact of that matter is, humans are cowards. We never understand the difference between what is right and what is easy. Consequently, we make more mistakes, worsening the situation. I never understood why people made these sort of mistakes in relationships...until I made it myself.
Being judgmentally impaired, as much as a cliché as that may sound, I have made the worst mistake of this year and one of the worst mistakes of my life, almost losing someone truly dear to me. He decided to forgive me, but still has let me know that he doesn't trust me yet, that it will take some time. Yes, that's true, it does hurt, but I cannot tell myself that I didn't deserve that. I told him I loved him, while my actions completely proved otherwise. We've been together for a very rocky month now. The possibility of something good still brews in the atmosphere...
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